It's been a while sense I have written anything. Some days I sit in front of my computer and words pour onto the screen, but nothing seems to come out how it should be read. Other times I want to write out so much but nothing comes into words. How do I express a lifetime full of experience and thought, how do I write a story that has not ended? We are all full of impressions and feelings. These are the exact things that shift our answers to life questions and it changes our direction between what is right and what is wrong.
...What is right?...What is wrong? There is so much grey area... and I have found myself running into them constantly. As constant as day and night.
I am not the answer to loneliness, for now.
I cannot make you feel good about who you are, but I will tell that your great.
I don't know if I have let "it" (my doubts of fears) go yet or not, but I want to.
I don't know how to pray, so I will just cry for you.
I don't know if I should go, but I will with an underlying hope.
Sometimes I don't hear God too, and I still long to hear His voice.
I have ignored God before, when I should have listened.
You are not my solution to my issues, but be patient while I work on them.
I want to capture God, but He will not be caged. There is so much I can't understand, I try to find out the answer but, like God, there will always be mystery to it. We were not meant to know how to and why, if we knew it all there would be no God. All I can hope for is that You Father will lead me to know where to go.... No, you are always leading. What I need to do, is follow.
